Losing (Fright)

I don't have any idea since when, but I feel it not so quite times ago.

It is not things such as...

misery to know your loving cat is dead,

lose your big opportunity to win million money,

your stick plans turn to ruin,

your favorite dvd is broken,

run out of allowances,

can't break an easy puzzles,

annoying with stumbling teeth when kissing,

alone in the house at night,

regret for run out of snacks in your room,

stain in your favorite dress, or

tired of TV drama and TV gives no good shows for you.

Those all are just gravels in your life

But i feel afraid about some classic gravel in every girls' fright!

"When you can not bear to lose your boy you love the most!"

or maybe for you, in common people are like

"Having untrusted best friend stab you on the back!"

(is it true the same, isn't it? tell me if I'm wrong)

Have you ever had questions about..

why I have this feeling?

where is this begin?

and when is this end?

can I hold it?

and you ever hopes of..

I don't want to be disappointed, please.

I will have enough patient to get along with him/her.

I won't wake up in beautiful daydreaming.

if I get the worst, I will be strong as storm.

Everyone wants to be trusted and have the truth from someone believe them.

ga bermaksud galau sih, tapi apalah daya. pengennya sih berbagi isi pikiran, gue harap cari ini ga cissy!

Time Consuming

 Much times were wasting out.

waste times for take a nap, watching piracy-DVD, starring at cat plays or cat sleeps, maybe do nothing

Times waste poorly

so pooor...ly

Do you have any kind of interest?

My mom thaught me how do knit or crochet, when I was in junior high.

But they were not my fav-kind-thing.

But I couldn't do anything to spend for this precious time

But I have needle and yarns... so what am i waiting for?

Do knit! Do crochet!

Then I just sang  lalalalalala...

Inside my room, under the blankets, lied on pillows and bolster

watched them carefully about the pattern

ignoring my partner

ignoring my cat

ignoring my friends

focus

Then a making-thing-in-precious-times-work had done

So what must i suppose to feel?

I am happy

Had Happen in My Room

Every people have a comfort nest to find. Sometimes, they aren't cozy enough. So, they have to build a comfortness.

Build something like that needs times. Collect all kind of stuffs you need, arrange them, and feel them. Are they comfy enough for me?

If you feel that's all just like what you want, now there will be much much much times you'll spend in that nest. You do anykind of things you're very love, even your pet.

 

 

they are my comfort zones.

Paking Ticture

Some day, mr. honey bear come down the hill, to visit his friend, ms. yellow cat.

nothing to do in that day. "maybe, visiting a friend will be kind a nice activity," mr. bear thought.

Few hours, they having chit chat about anything........

ms. cat : sir, are you easily get bored these day, honey?

mr. bear : yeah.

ms. cat : i think we must make a new thing in between our line, so this will make it more interesting

mr. bear : like what?

ms. cat : taking picture of ours

mr. bear : ?!

ms. cat : c'mon

mr. bear : okay..

KLIK!

ms. cat : one more?

mr. bear : haha, olright..

KLIK!

mr. bear : nice... take me look.

ms. cat : can we have some more?

mr. bear : yeah.

klik!

mr. bear & ms. cat : WHAT THE....

ms. cat : i think its blackout....

mr. bear : oh, dear

......

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                How Are You?

*was a time to clean up the work dest... all its resident was formed a line outside, on the balcony.

I realized they had nice calm colours and then the film effect would gave beautifull printed.

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"Nor again is there anyone who loves or pursues or desires to obtain pain of itself, because it is pain, but because occasionally circumstances occur in which toil and pain can procure him some great pleasure. To take a trivial example, which of us ever undertakes laborious physical exercise, except to obtain some advantage from it? But who has any right to find fault with a man who chooses to enjoy a pleasure that has no annoying consequences, or one who avoids a pain that produces no resultant pleasure?"

Doesn't matter, does it?

it is really doesn't matter, 19 or 17, or another numbers. don't care

the matter is how come we'll make them 

worth and beautiful

A Way Get Life Back

BAD:

addict of doing nothing, throw everything on not their places.

MERRY-MAKING:

good books, new things of esoteric knowledge, beautiful color of paint, tasty food, smell of cinnamon and ground after the rain, nice crochet or hakken pattern, seeing different way from viewfinder, nice gigs, bear hug, watching freaky-nice things on you tube, good pc games, great futsal teams, perfect scores, fall in love.

GRIEF-MAKING:

pimples, no texting in whole day, seeing my mom cried, breakup hugs, last pages away of a really nice book, dark feeling after breakups, my pet get sick, turning back times of trouble, knowing someone had to leave me, harrasment by people, left behind, jealously.

4 ITEMS CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT:

internet, musics, papers, books.

RECENT CRUSH:

boy with big calves and fat tummy.. :-*

FALSE:

smoke while you can

TRUTHS:

keep walking is the way to find something

Benang Kusut Datang Lagi

20 Januari 2010

Hei hei, ini terjadi lagi
Dua kali dalam hidup saya, datang lagi
Dua kali dalam hidup saya, setelah 2 tahun
Rasa benang kusut datang lagi
Imajinasi kita menyatu lagi dengan obrolan-obrolan penuh fantasi
Seru ya, mr. Sampah!
Entah kenapa saya suka sekali dengan topik kita dalam obrolan dengan media apapun. Terkadang tidak jelas. Se-tidak-jelas kondisi ini. Di awang-awang.
Habis, rasanya ini hanya imajinasi. Cuma ada di otak saya
Nanti saya menggambar lagi benang kusut itu, namun dengan posisi yang berbeda, karena saya telah membuat rambut saya kusut seperti punyamu. Namun tentu saya tidak ingin sekusut kamu Mr
Setelah profesimu selalu membuat saya iri. Iri sekali sampai-sampai saya ingin mendorongmu untuk terjun ke jurang dan saya menggantikan posisimu berdiri disitu. Tidak apa-apa berada di pinggir jurang, asal saya dapat merasakan posisi maut impian saya itu, padahal profesi itu tidak sejelas namanya. Sebenarnya apa sih yang jelas?
Atau
Kita bisa berdiri di posisi itu bersama-sama, tapi bagaimana caranya ya?
Saya sudah kehabisan semangat dan uang untuk berada di situ sih, jadi saya hanya bisa berdiri di lereng dan perlahan-lahan naik nanti, entah dengan media apa nanti. Tunggu saya saja
Namun sekarang kita hanya bisa mengobrol. Hei mr. Sampah kadang menyenangkan sekali mengobrol atau bermain seperti ini, seperti 2 tahun lalu.
Terus selanjutnya hanya awang-awang, rasanya seperti sekali-kalinya ada film lokal keren di bioskop Cuma lima hari.
Fiksi
Selamanya tidak menjadi nyata, hanya perlu sedikit dorongan untuk membunuh seseorang yang berada di pinggir jurang.
Dan suatu saat saya akan mendorong mu dari situ
Atau
Mungkin kita berdiri sama-sama di situ
Bagaimana Mr??